June

There is one person who keeps checking my blog, noticing the lack of updates, and then pestering me endlessly about posting again.  This person is my husband.  Going to bed at night:  "Let's see, has the blog been updated yet?  Nope.  Still the same..."  Yes, it does make me feel a little guilty, especially since I didn't intend to go a month without posting.  So here's a summary of the month of June:

 

 Alyssa had her Spring ballet recital.  She did fabulous!

The stereo was stolen from our van one night, and the kids and I discovered it when we were headed to the spray park the next afternoon.  I called in to report it, and the kids decided to patrol and guard our driveway while we waited for the police to come.

We went to Brian's parent's cabin to go mushrooming.  It was wet and rainy, but we had a lot of fun.  It was Sadie's first trip to the woods, and she loved it.  Everyone found mushrooms, even the boys.  Brian seemed to find the most, and the hardest ones to find.  I enjoyed mushrooming, but my favorite parts of the trip were the two glorious naps I was able to take.  It was wonderful!

[camping pictures go here - soon]

The next weekend we went camping at Mt. Rainier.  In past years we've been to Ohanapecosh on the East side of the mountain, but this year we needed a group site, so we went to Cougar Rock on the West side.  It's been a cold Spring, so as we drove to our campsite, we passed ten to fifteen foot walls of snow on each side of the road.  Brian had the GPS and kept saying that we were getting closer, and I kept thinking, "What did I get ourselves into?!?"  Luckily, after driving up the mountain, we drove back down for a bit and the snow disappeared.  It wasn't the warmest camping trip we've done, but it was still a lot of fun.  And boy, did it rain.  It was mostly sunny in the mornings, but from afternoon on, it was like buckets and buckets of rain.

We went with my parents, my two sisters (so the Johnsons and the McCanns), and the Baughs.  Our group site was set back away from everyone else, so it was nice and private, and the kids enjoyed running around together.  We hiked up to Carter Falls, went to a visitors center and museum, and spent lots of time sitting around the fire.

I haven't taken any pictures since camping.  Nothing of the 4th of July - sorry.  Brian's sister came in to town last week, and we've been having fun visiting with them, but we're also trying to give everyone in Brian's family a little space, because Brian's dad also had his gall bladder removed last week.  I've been spending most of my time cleaning the house and getting everything ready for the baby to come.  Eleven more days until my due date!  The nausea got pretty bad a couple weeks ago, right about thirty seven weeks, and I was ready to demand an induction, but of course, it was too soon.  Now that I'm closer to my due date, the nausea isn't as bad, and I'm trying to wait patiently.  Right now I'm just to the point where I'm so dang excited to meet this little one.  Not too much longer, though.

The 4th of July was fun.  We had a family dinner at Brian's parent's house on the third, then a barbecue at my parent's house on the fourth.  We walked down to Gesa Stadium to watch the fireworks.  We got there at 9:55, found the perfect spot (don't know why people haven't caught on to it yet), fireworks started at 10:00, and Marcus was asleep by 10:07ish.  He did warn us, though.  He kept trying to bring his pillow, saying, "I'm going to sleep there."  He was right - he must have been one tired kid.

Chef De Cuisine

Alyssa has recently taken a fancy to cooking.  Today for lunch she made soup following her own recipe.  The picture isn't a fabulous quality - I snuck up on her and had to take it real fast before she realized what I was doing.  I took the picture just after she tested the soup - apparently we need to have a talk about double dipping.  Oh, and the huge bag of dog food on the counter...that didn't make it into the soup.  A big plastic tub to put dog food in is on our shopping list for today so I can stop pulling it out of the pantry every time we need to feed Sadie.


Alyssa's Secrit Reseipy

1. Creem of chicken.
Croumble Ritz.
Str it.  Add Milk and cheese.

What Did Your Amazing Husband Do This Weekend?

My amazing husband put in the edging stones around the flower bed, added some sprinklers, and laid down a path from the porch to the kids' playground.  I keep going to the backyard just to see what a great job he did.  See how level and perfect that path is?  I love it, and I can't wait until the filler between the stones sets up enough that we can walk on it. I might look for excuses to walk to the playground.  Up next: putting down the ground cover, planting a snowball bush, some lavender, and tomatoes, then covering it all with mulch.

Progress Report

Fence - Done!  It is absolutely finished!  It's so nice to let Sadie outside without worrying about her running off, and to let the kids play, knowing they're contained as well.  We still have some clean up to do: resetting the sprinklers, filling in the gaps by the mow strip, etc., but it is just so wonderful to finally have a fence.

Homeschool - Alyssa is done with Math, Science, and History.  We have a lot of Language Arts lessons left, so we'll be focusing on those for the next few weeks, then once those are done, we'll go into summer school mode.  Summer school will just be practicing math facts, along with regrouping and borrowing, reading books and doing story maps and book reports, and working on the spelling words we'll be missing in the next couple of weeks from doing language Arts so fast.  Once the baby comes, summer school will be over, and we'll enjoy our official summer vacation.

Nursery - We haven't done anything in the nursery lately.  The fence has taken top priority.  We need to set up the crib, put up the curtains, put in the changing table, etc.  I did get some cute outfits on Clearance at target last week, so I think this little girl only needs a few more pajamas and some cute summer time onesies, and she'll be taken care of clothes-wise for a while.

Pregnancy - Only eight weeks left!  Sometimes that feels so close, and other times it feels forever away.  Today marks 55 days until my due date, and I can't wait.  For a while I was doing really well with trying not to throw up in the mornings, but now it's getting harder. Oh, I just can't wait until this is all over.  I have a huge list of things I want to eat after the baby comes, because once I'm not pregnant anymore, I'll actually be able to enjoy eating.  But don't ask me what's on the list, because I won't be able to pinpoint something - it's basically comprised of everything.

Sadie - We've discovered that Sadie likes to bite.  I know, all puppies like to bite, but she really likes to play rough.  She's a smart dog, and she's doing really well with her training.  The only problem is that she sees the kids as large, loud chew toys, and she doesn't back down once she starts playing rough.  We had someone come from Pawsitive Effects Dog Training, and she worked with us for an hour or so on how to get Sadie to back down.  It's helping a lot, and I'm glad we had her come.  I've been working with Sadie on "Leave it" and "Drop it," and responding always to having her name called, and she's catching on.  She's getting better on a leash now, too.  Our walks started out just going around the back yard, then around the cul-de-sac, and this morning, we went a full mile around the neighborhood.  She still likes to cuddle before bed time, and she definitely likes to be with us when we're working outside.

Yard - Now that the fence is complete, we have tons of ideas for the yard.  A pergola in the back corner, flower beds and vegetables all along the fence, Ethan wants a trampoline but that ain't gonna happen, etc.  The main problem is that we ran out of project money building the fence, and the next couple months of our Usable Savings needs to be stockpiled to pay to have the baby.  I've already paid the doctor for the whole pregnancy, but we have no idea what the hospital bill is going to be, and that scares me.  We've got the enthusiasm and momentum from getting that fence up, though, so whatever project that doesn't take a lot of money will at least be started.  We have one flower bed that we've already bought the edging stones for, so that's going to be put together first.  Mostly I'm just excited to have a place to turn some sprinklers on and let the kids play this summer.  It's going to be wonderful.

Wonderful Weekend

On Thursday Brian and I went in for my ultrasound.  We're 100% sure now that our baby is a girl, and of course, she's very cute.  I wish the picture I took of the picture turned out better, but, well, that's what happens when you take a picture of a picture.  This must be why I can look at other 4D ultrasound pictures online and think the babies look like blobby aliens, but I stare and stare at the original copy the doctors office gave me and think, "She's so beautiful!"

Friday we got up early to (finally!) pour the cement for the mow strip for our fence.  It was exciting to watch it go in, but it was stressful to try to get it all in and smooth before our time with the truck ran out and the concrete dried.  John (the guy in the yellow shirt) was amazing!  First of all, he's a contractor, so he's the one that arranged to have the cement truck come on such short notice.  We were going to borrow a truck from Brian's dad and just get a rental cement trailer from Pasco Rentals, but we were having a hard time getting the truck at the same time we could get help to pour the cement.  So John said, "No, you don't want to do that," and called to get a truck to come to us, and he came over to help.  He was the one that took the time to smooth the patio where we're going to put a pergola.  Watching him, Brian and I realized that we didn't have a clue as to what to do for that, and if it was left up to us, the patio would have looked horrible.  As it is with John's help, it's beautiful!

Once we were done with the concrete, Brian loaded up the boys in the van and drove to Spokane.  Our friend, Will, was running a half marathon, and he had to bring his son with him, so Brian went to keep an eye on Grant while Will was running.  The boys had a blast!  They swam in the hotel pool, played in the park, rode a carousel, and just had a great time relaxing.  Brian said the best part of the trip was not having any responsibilities - they could just do what they wanted without worrying about being anywhere at certain times and things like that.

Alyssa and I also enjoyed our time alone.  We went to my sister's house for a cousin play of "Sleeping Beauty," went out to dinner at Teriyaki Grill, got our hair cut, picked up some goodies and a movie, watched Megamind while eating those goodies, went to ballet with my niece Marian, and went out shopping for some Spring and Summer clothes for Alyssa, which she was badly in need of.  Before we went to sleep on Friday, Alyssa said that it was the best day ever and that she loved spending special time with me.  I loved it too!

While we were out at Red Robin after shopping at Target, Brian sent me this picture and said, "We're having fun."

So I sent him this picture back, saying, "So are we."

It really was a great weekend.

Yeah, I Guess It's Not A Good Idea To Hide The Candy In My Closet

Marcus can get into everything.  I have to lock the pantry and the fridge, and even that doesn't stop him sometimes.  Last week, after I told him he couldn't have an yogurt (or yo-yug, as he calls it), I found him hiding behind a chair in the quiet room, happily downing a tub of vanilla yogurt - his favorite.  I called my parents house to rant for a minute, and my sister-in-law, Erin, answered.  She suggested putting the refrigerator on top of the roof.  My mom says that it probably wouldn't do any good.

These are all my maternity clothes.  My real clothes are folded on the shelf for the time being.

So we hide the candy on the top shelf of our closet.  It's not exactly hidden, but there's no way for the kids (i.e. Marcus) to reach them.  Although there was one time that he drug a chair in from the school room to try.  As you might be able to see, Brian buys his candy in bulk.  Red Vines from Costco, large boxes of Cadbury eggs (He brought home regular for me and caramel for him.  His are gone.), and hidden behind the vitamins and under the licorice are boxes of chocolate covered cherries he got me for Christmas.  There's also a box of Phineas and Ferb candy I got for Easter, but Marcus found it before the Easter Bunny could distribute it, so it just became family candy.

The point to all of this is what is missing from the picture.  There used to be a semi-full bag of Kit Kats sitting on those two folded sweaters.  It wasn't bulk, though - not that big.  Anyway, I got out of the shower this morning, and I was feeling pretty sick.  I knew I had to eat something right away, or I would throw up.  So I grabbed a Kit Kat from the top of the closet, ate it, and thought, "This is so good."  And then I finished the bag off while I got dressed.

I guess the real question here is: Who's going to hide the candy from me?

30 Weeks on Mother's Day

 Yesterday, on Mother's Day, I officially completed thirty weeks of this pregnancy.  Thirty weeks, with seventy days on the count down until my due date.  We're getting there!  I've been trying really hard lately to not throw up in the morning, so I'm down to throwing up just once every few days.  I've discovered that sitting in the passenger seat in the car makes me really sick, so yesterday I started driving even when Brian is with me.  (I guess I knew that it made me sick a long time ago, but yesterday was the first time I decided to do something about it.  It helped a lot.)  It takes me five minutes to roll over in bed now, and even longer to get out of bed.  Okay, that's an exaggeration, but it feels like five minutes.  I waddle more often than I walk.  The baby is big enough and strong enough for us to be able to watch my tummy bounce and stretch from her movements.  I suppose this all means that this pregnancy is well under way.  I have a 3D ultra sound scheduled for Thursday, and I'm so excited.  Our insurance doesn't cover ultra sounds, so we were thinking of canceling it, but I've never had a 3D one before, and this is our last baby, so last night Brian and I decided to go ahead and do it.

So this is the first belly shot I took when I was around six weeks along.  This was back when I was so excited to be pregnant and I just knew that this pregnancy was going to be different.  I wasn't sick yet, I was still running three miles every day, and at this point I decided that I was going to write in a pregnancy journal and take a belly picture every week.  Other than yesterday and today, though, this is the only belly picture I've taken.  But having such a large gap in between pictures sure shows that difference!

This next picture I took this morning.  I took a couple yesterday, but I forgot to turn the flash off my camera, so they didn't turn out so well.  Please ignore my scuzzy hair and such.  I ran out of clean underwear, so I'm waiting until my clothes are out of the dryer to take a shower.

Anyway, I am so excited to have gotten this far.  Every day I go to bed thinking, "One more day done.  I made it through another day."  On days when it's warm and sunny outside, and it feels like summer is coming, it feels like it's so close to when we'll get our baby.  Also, with the dog and home school keeping me busy, each week is flying by, so I know we'll be at the end soon. 

When You Have A Puppy...

...you wash loads and loads of laundry (especially towels from cleaning up puddles) but never get around to folding those clothes.

...you trip over a fluffy black mess of energy while preparing breakfast, lunch, and dinner, because that fluffy black mess of energy loves you a whole lot, even after you step on her tail.

...you find yourself saying, "Sadie, don't bite!" ten thousand times a day, and as you pry a dirty sock from her mouth you find yourself wondering why you spent big bucks on chew toys and rope toys and kong toys when for the most part, they're ignored.

...you watch from your dining room window as your kids build a boat out of the playground set and the dogs follows them around the yard, wagging her little tail.

...you end up with a huge dog crate in your bedroom and another dog crate in the school room and still search Craigslist for another one to go in the family room.  You look at the family room, which doesn't have a couch, but has a a large, circular dog pillow from Costco, and wonder why the dog has more furniture in the house than you do.

and of course

...you never blog, because you have a brand new baby to take care of, and unlike human babies, puppies can walk and bite and chew and need constant - CONSTANT - supervision when they're not in their kennel to keep them from piddling on the floor.

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So we've learned a lot since getting Sadie two weeks ago.  Puppies are a lot of work!  Between Sadie and the kids and home school and household chores and being in charge of Activity Days at church, I don't have a minute to spare.  I'm currently writing this blog post while the kids are having read-aloud time, and now they're actually done and I need to do Phonics with the boys while Alyssa reads silently.

Having a puppy is not all bad, though.  Sadie is down to waking up just once or twice a night to go potty, and Brian takes one shift and I take the other, so I'm not as tired as I was last week.  As you can tell from our multiple dog crates, we've gotten more serious about kennel training in the last week or so, and it's cut down on the amount of accidents in the house, and it's also helped Sadie to be a part of the family when we need to concentrate on things other than her (like breakfast, lunch, dinner, and school) while keeping her from wandering around the room, chewing on things she's not supposed to chew on.  The last couple of days, she's slept happily in her crate while we do a little bit of school, then she and the kids take a recess in the back yard, then we're back to school for a while, then another recess, etc.  The kids are enjoying it, of course, because they never got so many recesses before Sadie came along.

I love watching Sadie play in the back yard with the kids.  I love cuddling up to her when she's sleepy before bed time.  Even though I trip over her, I love that she follows me around the kitchen, because it means she likes me.  Overall, we're really enjoying the new addition to our family, even though she is a lot of work.

Let's Back Up A Bit

Brian and I have always known that we would eventually get a dog.  Brian grew up with a wonderful labrador retriever, and I'm not picky, so we've basically always known that we would end up with a labrador.  It definitely helps that they're a great family dog.  So in talking about putting up a fence and planning for a future dog, we decided that if we wait until after the baby comes, we'll most likely wait until she is two or three years old, because we didn't want to bring home a boisterous puppy with a baby in the house.  We decided that if we were going to get a dog soon, we should get it soon, so we can get through the puppy stage before the baby comes.  We didn't really discuss it much further than that.  We knew we needed to get the fence up, and then I guess we figured we would work it out after that.

Fast forward to last week, when I was randomly surfing the internet while waiting for Alyssa to finish some school work.  I found an ad on Craigslist for a six month old labrador mix that the owner couldn't keep, because his daughter was allergic.  I thought it looked like a great dog, and asked Brian if we wanted to surprise the kids with a dog for Easter.  Brian took a look at the pictures, wondered what the "mix" part of the dog was, and said, "Look at the size of his feet!  He's going to be a monster!  See? He's eating that chair!"  But considering that dog - or not considering that dog led us to looking at other options.

We called about a litter of seven-week-old puppies in Othello and about a seven-week-old puppy just above Spokane.  We skipped a Saturday of working on the fence to go check them all out.  We liked one of the chocolate labs in Othello, and we took a couple of pictures of him with the kids and decided to keep him in mind.  Then we made the long drive to Spokane.  We stopped in Spokane for lunch at a place called The Onion, which had really good and really HUGE onion rings.  I felt bad, because I'm to the point in my pregnancy when my stomach is small, and I could only eat half of my hamburger.  It was yummy, though!

We then headed North to a place out in the middle of nowhere, to meet Sadie.  The man brought her out front, instead of us going back to the kennels, since we had looked at other puppies that day, and he was afraid of spreading Parvo.  When he set her on the ground, Brian picked her up, and she calmly sat on his lap for the majority of the time we were there.  I wanted a calm dog, so that made up my mind.  What we've discovered in the last few days, though, is that the afternoon is her calm time, and she likes to run around and go crazy when she wakes up in the morning.  Compared to other puppies, though, she is still a calm dog, and we're happy for that.

House training is going well.  She's doing great at it, but it is exhausting.  The first two nights it was worse than having a newborn - we were up every two hours to take her outside.  After last night I stopped watching the clock as much and started to pay attention to her, and I think it's going to get easier.  We were up every three hours last night, and I honestly think she could go a bit longer.  Plus, she's starting to wake Brian and I up when she has to go at night time, which is nice.

We ended up putting her kennel with a bed in it in our bedroom for now.  She's doing really well with the kennel training as well.  We put a ticking clock in there with her, and she likes to cuddle up to it while she sleeps.  She doesn't like being in the kennel if the kids are around, because she knows she's missing out on play time, but after the kids go to bed, we put her to bed, and for the most part, she goes right to sleep.

Callie also started handling Sadie's arrival better yesterday.  She's avoiding her less, and she seems to have forgiven Brian.  I think she's just accepted the fact the dog is here to stay and has decided to deal with it.  Or maybe she listened to me when I told her that she needed to make friends with Sadie before Sadie was three times her size, but honestly I don't think cats listen to anybody.

Sadie seems to be more comfortable with her collar than she was at first, so the kids and I are going to start leash training her today.  At first that basically consists of putting the leash on her and letting her get used to it being there.  That part shouldn't be too hard.

Anyway, we're really happy to have Sadie in our family.  We're learning that it's a lot of work to have a puppy, but she is a smart dog, and she's already learning (and growing!) and it's been a lot of fun having her around the last few days.

Our New Baby Before The Baby Comes

On Saturday morning we woke up bright and early to find the kids' Easter baskets sitting in the upstairs hallway.  Everyone was excited, and we went downstairs for an Easter egg hunt and a candy breakfast.

Then we straightened up the house a bit (not as much as I would have liked, because that's how it always goes) and headed up to Othello to meet a litter of really cute chocolate labradors.  We sat in the grass with them, and loved them, and the kids ran around the yard with them.  We did not, however, take one home with us.

Instead, we decided to drive for two and a half hours over to Spokane to meet a sweet little black lab, which we did take home.  We named her Sadie, and we just love her.  See?  She and Brian already have a kissing relationship.  (Sorry about the quality of the pictures.  I didn't realize they were so fuzzy until I put them on the computer.)

Sadie slept on my lap the whole way home, which was a long drive, because the GPS took us on the back roads back to Pasco.  Alyssa, Marcus, and I headed to Petco to buy a collar, leash, kennel, bed, poop scoop, etc.  while Brian and Ethan introduced Sadie to our house and the cat.  Callie, by the way, is not thrilled with Sadie's arrival, but she's taking it pretty well.  She's interested in Sadie (like smelling her, and watching her) but for the most part, she's just keeping her distance and giving Brian the cold shoulder.  I say Brian, and not me, because she's sitting on my lap right now, licking my arm.  Brian is her favorite, and I think she feels completely betrayed by him.

Sorry to cut this short.  I'll give more information in another post.  I've got to take Sadie on a potty break before we take Alyssa to school for P.E.

Weekend Projects

 On Friday after school Brian and I finished painting the baby's room.  I had to climb on a chair to get to the high areas, so after a while I just let Brian paint while I sat in said chair and typed up his talk for Sunday.  He dictated what he wanted to say while I typed, and when he woke up the next morning, his laptop had restarted and didn't auto-save the file, so he had to start fresh.  On Sunday morning he was left with twenty five minutes to speak, and he did an awesome job.

 On Saturday we went outside to plant a lilac bush and ended up tearing up a good chunk of yard.  Brian's mom is famous in their family for her Saturday morning projects, which this was very much like.  She would apparently say, "If we all work together, we'll be done in an hour or two," and then, several hours later, they would still be working.

So we went outside, pulled a few weeds - okay, a lot of weeds - and dug a hole for the lilac bush.  Brian found the sprinkler pipe, and he didn't want the roots to damage the pipe, so we decided to move the sprinkler line over a few feet.  With the help of Brian's brother, Eric, and the bishop's teenage sons, Justin and Jeff, we were able to get the sprinkler line moved, the lilac planted, and the stone edging for the flower bed started. It's obviously a project that we didn't anticipate doing on Saturday.  It's still not finished, but we'll work on it some more after we put in the mow strip for the fence.  I'll post pictures when it's more done. 

 Eric

 Marcus

 Ethan with Jeff and Justin, and Alyssa's in the background.  Our boys absolutely loved having the "big boys" working with us.

The nursery walls turned out great, but they looked just a little bit too much like Neapolitan ice cream.  I still loved it, but I kept feeling the temptation to cover the walls in chocolate syrup and whipped cream every time I walked in the room to admire our work, which I do a lot, because I love a freshly painted room.  I also was a little hesitant to put up some molding in between the colors (even though that was the original plan all along) because our line was perfect.  I didn't want to cover it up.  But it really did need some distinction between the strawberry and chocolate scoops, so I experimented with some dark pink ribbon and ended up starching it to the wall.  It doesn't look uber fabulous in the picture, but in person, it does.  I love it.

Nursery-wise, I've got the crib bumpers almost finished, the curtains planned in my head, and really cute woodland pictures being drawn by my super talented niece, Megan.  It's all coming together with plenty of time to spare.  Since I haven't put any decorations up in the room yet, my favorite piece in the nursery is the tiny pink "little sister" outfit I got on sale at Carter's that's hanging in the closet.  We'll see if it stays at the top of the list when I move some furniture in and put things on the walls.  It's going to be hard to beat!

Igneous, Sedimentary, Or Metamorphic?

We finished our unit on rocks today, and Brian brought his rock collection up from the garage to show the kids.  He knows a lot more about rocks than I do!  One of the rocks in his collection is still at his parents house.  (His mom winds her garden hose around it.)  It's very round, but flat on one side and basically the size of a basketball.  Brian found it on a hike-in camping trip, and his parents told him that if he wanted to bring it home, he had to carry it himself.  It took him two camping trips over two years to bring it home.  He carried it half way down the mountain the first year, then carried it the rest of the way on their trip the next year.  I guess it was worth it - it's a pretty cool rock.

sandstone with a fish fossil - Brian said, "This fish is even older than Mom!"

Marcus found a green marble in Brian's rock collection, and he keeps bringing it to me with the magnifying glass, saying, "Look at this rock," and "What kind of rock is this?"  Every time I say that it's a marble, he says, "No-oh."

I can not say enough about how much I love home schooling.  Yes, there are many days that I want to pull my hair out in frustration, and my sister can confirm that there are many days that I call her and scream, "What am I going to do with my children?!?"  But overall, when it comes down to it, I love having Alyssa at home during the days.  I love watching her learn, and especially when it comes to math, I love watching how fast she catches on to things.  I also love that it's 12:16 on a Friday, and we're all done with school, and we can spend the rest of the day as a family.

Now That's My Kind Of Volcano

I have to admit that we don't always do the science experiments that K12 wants us to do in their lessons.  In fact, since I've been pregnant, a lot of the time I just read through the experiment with Alyssa.  "Okay, pretend we did this...and what do you think would happen?...Yeah, this and this would happen and we would learn..."

But today, we were learning how igneous rocks are formed, and when we went to the experiment page of the lesson, and I read ,"Melt 1/2 cup of chocolate chips..." I looked at Alyssa and said, "Meet me in the kitchen."

It was actually a pretty cool experiment.  Very simple and very cool.  We built our mountain out of a cup and some foil, melted our lava chocolate chips*, and then poured the lava down the mountain, now a volcano.  The point of the experiment was to illustrate that when it's in the earth, the lava is called "magma," then it's lava when it breaks through the crust, and when the lava cools, it hardens into igneous rock.  Right now our igneous rock is still hardening, and we're anxiously waiting to eat it.

*If you want to try this, the recipe for the lava is 1/2 c. melted chocolate chips mixed with 1 tsp. canola oil.  It made it the perfect consistency to flow down the mountain.  We doubled it so we can eat more chocolate.

I Guess 2 Nephi Is Boring For Kids

Alyssa fell asleep during scripture study last night, too, but she woke up when we were done and said, "I'm going to bed and I'm going to tuck myself in," and got up and left. 

 And I couldn't help but get a picture of the kids during Read Aloud Time a few minutes ago.  I love having Alyssa home with us during the day!

I Love My Daddy

I've been wanting to write about this for a while, but I haven't really gotten a chance to yet.  Over the weekend I decided that since it's been exactly a month since it happened, it's as good a time as any.

On Valentine's Day last month Will, Nelsa, Brian, and I hopped off of Toy Story Mania in California Adventure and headed to a churro stand to get a snack.  While Brian was ordering, my phone rang.  I answered it and stepped to the side of the churro stand, to be out of the way.  It was my sister.  She began by saying that they were in the hospital, but every time she said, "because..." a roller coaster would go by, making it impossible for me to hear.  I honestly thought that one of her kids had broken an arm or a leg or something, and she was just calling me as an FYI sort of thing.  I covered my free ear with my hand, and tried to get away from the noise.

"Dad had a stroke this morning," I finally heard, and immediately I started crying.  Christina kept telling me not to cry, that everything was okay, and that he was doing well.  She didn't have much else that she could tell me, so we hung up, and I waited until we got back to our hotel to call my mom.

He had the stroke that Monday morning, a little while after getting to work.  It manifested itself by making him dizzy, lightheaded, and nauseated.  He later said that the room was spinning and he felt so sick, so he just lay down on the floor.  One of his co-workers walked by his room, asked if he was okay, and he said, "No," so they called an ambulance.  At first they thought it was just an extremely severe attack of the flu, but once he got to the hospital, they found out if was a stroke.

While I talked with my mom that night, we thought of all the things that we were thankful for: that it didn't happen while he was driving to work, that someone walked by his door at just the right moment to get him help, that my mom wasn't staying with my kids (which was the original plan) and she was able to head to the hospital right away without figuring out what to do with them.  I felt bad that I wasn't home with everyone, but Mom said that Dad was doing okay, and that Brian and I should finish out our vacation.  I also realized that all six of us kids couldn't be hanging around the hospital at the same time, and that even if I was in the Tri-Cities, most of my time would be spent at home, waiting for news anyway.  So Brian and I sent some flowers to Dad's room, called multiple times a day to see how things were going, then we visited him in the hospital as soon as we arrived home.

Dad's recovery has been great.  He has full use of his mind - he remembers everything, and has even gone back to work part time, because he's the only one who knows how to do his job correctly.  He's been using a cane to steady him when he walks, and he goes to physical therapy a few times a week.  The stroke has been a huge wake up call for him to get his life in order health-wise, and I've heard he's lost thirty pounds since the end of January.

We are all so glad that Dad is still with us, both physically and mentally.  When I first heard the news, I was so scared of losing him, and I'm so happy he's still here.  I can't imagine what life would be like without my Dad.

This Is How Cool My Brothers Are

Phil, Mike, Nathan, and Chris Baugh got together a while back to put together a rifftrax of them making fun of the movie, "10,000 BC."  They started planning the whole thing last summer, and they've been working furiously to get it done ever since.  If you remember the MST3K show on Comedy Central, it will give you a clue as to what a rifftrax is.  Basically, it's a bunch of funny guys watching a horribly boring movie and making fun of it.  Phil and Nate did a bit of the editing at our house, so I've seen bits and pieces of what they've done, and what I've seen is pretty darn funny.

So if you're interested in a cheap, at-home date night: pop some popcorn, grab a pack of root beer, and settle down with Ominous Project's version of "10,000 BC."

Info:  In ages past the world was a hostile place where mankind eked out an existence in constant fear of giant birds and monstrous shag-carpet elephants. But among these troglodytes arose a man whose destiny would lead him to unite the various tribes, tame the hordes of furry beasts, and establish a new way of life among his people. That man was Jim Henson, and this unfortunately is not his story. Instead, Ominous Projects invites you to join us for a commentary that makes watching 10,000 BC marginally less painful.


Edited to add:  Brian just informed me that because of copyright laws you need to have a copy of the movie in order to watch it with the rifftrax.  So if you want to watch it (and you know you all do) you will need to either buy it (not worth it) or rent it (my suggestion) or if you're in the Tri-Cities, my brother has a copy you could borrow.  Have fun!

Edited, yet again, to add: I watched it a couple of night ago, and it was great!  I actually thought the movie itself was pretty interesting, but it was so long and drawn out that I wouldn't have made it through the whole thing without the funny comments.  The second to last comment is my absolute favorite.

30 Already?!?

Brian says I'm getting old, but he has four years on me, so I'll never be as old as him!

Yesterday was a wonderful day.  To start, Brooke sent me Facebook wishes that I wouldn't feel sick, and I didn't throw up yesterday morning.  Yea!  I didn't even dry heave or gag, which is unusual for non-throwing up mornings.  

The kids and I spent the morning doing school, laundry, and cleaning, then we had some friends and cousins over after lunch for a play group.  The day started out rainy, but the sun came out periodically and the kids were able to play outside the whole afternoon.

Our friends stayed until just a little before Brian was expected home.  When everyone was gone I lay in bed for a bit (which Alyssa says I do all the time) and then Brian came home with flowers and a birthday cake.  We went out to dinner at Three Flames Mongolian Barbecue, which was a lot of fun.  I love Mongolian barbecue, but we weren't sure what the kids would think of it.  They liked it, but the boys were having so much fun playing with their noodles and watching the cooks at the oven that they barely ate their food.  That means leftovers for lunch today!

We were going to have the cake for dessert, but by the time we got home we were tired and already full, so we're saving it for tonight.  We put the kids to bed, watched a couple of episodes of Phineas and Ferb, got a fun Happy Birthday Phone Call from Katie, where she made fun of us for watching Phineas and Ferb, then I fell asleep while Dr. Doofenshmirtz was laying out one of his diabolical plans.

See? It was a good day.

We actually had my family birthday party on Monday for Family Home Evening, because we thought it was the best time to get everyone together.  Brian's parents offered to bring over dinner before the party, and they brought Alice Spring Chicken with jell-o salad and baked potatoes.  So yummy!  You know the Alice Spring Chicken at Outback?  Brian's dad got the copy cat recipe, and he makes it at home on his fancy schmancy barbecue - only better.  We had a great time having everyone over.  My parents gave me a cupcake decorating book with a lot of fun ideas, and Brian's parents gave me a whoopie pie pan and a heart-shaped cupcake pan.  I guess the secret is out that I like to bake.  My dad also gave me a gift certificate for a one-hour massage.  Apparently he won it at a company dinner, and everyone at their table (Mom, Dad, Erin, and Phil) agreed that I would enjoy it.  I'm excited!

I have been so happy lately that I just know this next year of life is going to be wonderful.  We'll get a brand new beautiful baby, I won't be pregnant anymore, and things will just keep going as wonderfully as they have been.  I get on pregnancy forums sometimes, and I see so many women complaining about their husbands, their parents, their in-laws, their children, and I'm so thankful to have a husband who loves me and works hard for our family, three fun children who make life exciting, a family close by to hang out with, great in-laws that have become my own family, and a soft and fluffy cat who sits around all day being soft and fluffy.  I really am blessed.  Life is great!

I Think Things Are Getting Back To Normal

I haven't thrown up since Monday!  I still feel sick all the time, but I'm not throwing up in the morning anymore. I think this is the longest I've gone without throwing up while being pregnant.  On Monday I went to a doctor appointment, and when I told him that I was down to just throwing up every morning, he literally jumped out of his chair and exclaimed, "That's wonderful!"  I really, really like my doctor.

So without throwing up each morning, my nausea has decreased a notch throughout the day, and I find that I'm functioning almost like a normal person.  I made a meal plan for the week and went grocery shopping, and then I've actually made those meals I planned.  We're back to cleaning up and running the dishwasher after dinner each evening, which leaves me with a clean kitchen to start the morning with the next day.  I love it!  Plus, I've done the most genius thing I've ever done and gave Alyssa the job of cleaning out the dishwasher each morning and Ethan the job of setting the table each evening, and it's funny how not worrying about those two little things takes so much stress off my shoulders.

We've also started to do "Two-Minute Tidy" each evening in the family room and the kids' bedrooms where we set the timer for two-minutes and clean like crazy.  It's actually kept the family room clean and the kids' rooms under control.

We've gone back to having family scripture study in the quiet room instead of on Brian's and my bed.  It used to be that I'd feel so sick in the evenings that I laid down on the couch right after dinner, barely supervised the kids getting ready for bed, then I laid down in my bed and we'd have scripture study just before bedtime.  With it being on my bed, Ethan and Marcus would climb up and down, and run to their rooms for stuffed animals, and cause quite a ruckus.  Now that we're back to reading in the quiet room, the kids are all sitting on the couch with their scriptures, and it's so much better.  Just FYI, we call our living room the quiet room, because I decorated it with just gospel related things: pictures of Jesus, pictures of the temple, etc.  We keep all our religious books in there, and we also put some of Brian's German religious books on display.  We have glass votives with eggs in them that I set out for Easter and left out because I liked that they symbolize the resurrection.  We have antique keys that Brian got from Germany out, to represent the keys of the priesthood.  We have Alyssa's baptism picture on the shelf, next to her baptism certificate.  Anyway, when I first decorated the room, we sat the kids down and had them look around.  We told them that this is the room that we want to keep special to most feel the spirit in our home.  We're Home taught in that room, we have scripture study there, and we sometimes have Family Home Evening there.  We said that it is a quiet room, and the name kind of stuck.

Moving on.

Now that I'm feeling better, I'm also ready to take on all of our projects.  We had two contractors come to give us estimates on concrete brick fences today - too expensive.  We'll be doing a wood fence ourselves.  It's much better on the budget.  I went to JoAnn Fabrics today and bought material for crib bedding for the nursery.  (We actually have room for a nursery this time!)  I'm planning a woodland theme with pinks and greens and creams.  If the nursery turns out anything like I'm imagining it in my head, it will be gorgeous.  There's other projects running around in my head right now: putting a mantel on the fireplace, decorating our bedroom, decorating the downstairs bathroom, etc., but those things are going to have to wait until we have the time and the money to do them.

I don't consider myself to be an overly emotional person, even as a pregnant lady, but today the kids were watching Phineas and Ferb - the episode where it's their mom's birthday - and I actually caught myself crying when Candace sang the "Mom It's Your Birthday" song.  Sad, I know.

The kids are all about babies right now.  Alyssa, who is not and never really was a "toy person" has been carrying around a baby doll and taking care of it.  She even had the boys guard the baby while it was taking a nap while Alyssa was playing outside, and the boys paced in front of it, saying, "Hup, two three four," for about five minutes, until they got bored and ran off.  The boys have been wrapping up their zhu zhu pets in blankets much too big for the little rodents and carrying them around as well.  It's fun.  Ethan named his Dowpia, which I love.  It's so cute.

Oh, I think that's about it.  School is going well.  We did a whole unit of Science yesterday, so we took today off to get started on our house projects.  We learned about the digestive system and grossed Alyssa out.  She actually said, "Mom, do we have to learn about this?  It makes my stomach sick."  We kept going, though.  We learned about all of it, all the way to the excretory system, much to Alyssa's dismay.

So, yeah, things are getting to be pretty normal around here.  I'm twenty weeks pregnant now, and the baby will be here in about four and a half months.  I'm getting pretty excited to be half way there and starting the countdown.  When our little one makes her debut in July, I'm sure things will get pretty shaken up again, but for now I'm going to enjoy the peace of a reasonably clean house and mostly followed schedule.

Edited to add: Is there any way to knock on wood on the internet? Both times I've posted about feeling better, I've had a relapse.  Last night I woke up at one in the morning, feeling absolutely sick, and I lost my dinner. Then I threw up again when I woke up this morning.  Craziness.  Brian brought me a bowl of granola in bed, and I just took my medication, so I'm feeling better now.  I hope it lasts.  Maybe I'll knock on the monitor.

Maybe This Will Help

Would Everyone Who Ever Needs To Inspect Noodles Forget Or Remember About Noodles Under Low Trees? Really, After Sharing Our Umbrella Noodles, Don't Tell Others. Different Amounts Yell, "Ahoy!" Nobody Deferred For Other Umbrella Noodles, Despite Others Under Trees Telling How Attempts To Win Every Awesome Rally Escaped. However, After Viewing Informal Noodles, Go Ahead. Lastly, I Told Them Loudly, "Everyone, Go In Really Low And Noodles, Don't Waver." Except After Rehashing Everything, To Honestly, Really Inspect, Lay Low Enough Down.*



We got back from California yesterday, and we're excited to be back together as a family again.  It was fun to have Ethan come snuggle in bed with us when he got up this morning.  But you know what?  We had SO MUCH FUN!  I admit that Disneyland without kids is missing that little bit of magic you feel watching your children experience the magic of Disneyland, but even though I missed our kids sometimes, I never regretted going on a special trip without them.   Running around Disneyland with Will and Nelsa (and Will's sister and her husband sometimes - we were surprised that they were there too!) without kids had a magic all it's own, and we had a blast.

We went on ride after ride, wandered around the shops, ate yummy yummy food (the Monte Crisco sandwiches in New Orleans Square are just as good as everyone says they are), watched the fireworks show (my favorite!) and the World of Color show (Brian's favorite), watched the Aladdin show, slept in as late as possible, and just had a fabulous time.

*2-25-11 Edited to add: We went in for an ultrasound today and found out that we are having a little girl and we are thrilled!

Letter/Word Puzzle

Would everyone who ever needs to inspect noodles forget or remember about noodles under low trees? Really, after sharing our umbrella noodles, don't tell others. Different amounts yell, "Ahoy!" Nobody deferred for other umbrella noodles, despite others under trees telling how attempts to win every awesome rally escaped. However, after viewing informal noodles, go ahead. Lastly, I told them loudly, "Everyone, go in really low and noodles, don't waver." Except after rehashing everything, to honestly, really inspect, lay low enough down.

Feeling Alive!

See the clean floors and counters?

The groundhog said Spring is coming!  Yea Spring!  I can't wait!  I'm tired of being cold, especially since I can't button my coat all the way 'cause my belly is too big, and I can't wait until we can play outside all the time and work in our yard and put up our fence and all those other wonderful things that Spring brings.

The sun is shining outside our window right now, and it just makes me happy.

I started feeling better yesterday, too.  I'm back to a low grade constant nausea that is pretty easy to handle.  Yesterday I felt good enough to clean the kitchen and family room, which really really needed it.  I even cleaned out the microwave - it was nasty!  And while I was cleaning I tossed out our old yucky dish scrubber and started a list (a list!) of things we need to buy at Target.  I am a huge list person, and you know things haven't been right by the fact that this is the first list I've made since before Thanksgiving.  I even called my mom and said, "I'm making a list!"

I'm excited to decorate for Valentine's Day, too.  I think our house might end up being more decorated for Valentine's Day and St. Patrick's Day and Easter than it was for Christmas.  We have very few V-Day decorations, but I cut the word "love" out of construction paper and taped it to the old window hanging in our family room, and I set out our little hugging monkey stuffies on a candle holder by the kitchen.  i do have a TON of paper hearts that we can hang in the windows and from the ceiling, and I think we'll head to Hobby Lobby and Craft Warehouse in the next few days and see what they have for cheap.

Also, 11 days until Brian and I leave for Disneyland.  Woo hoo!

my dad and me and my mom!

Last night I found a sealed envelope under my pillow, and inside it was a picture and a letter from Alyssa.  It took me a few minutes to notice my pregnant tummy, and when I did I laughed out loud.  At least my legs are skinny - if only they looked that great in real life!

The letter says, "Dear Mom, I want you to know that when you're sick it makes me sorry for you.  It just makes me feel so icky inside.  I want to be the best helper I can! So, if there's anything I can do, please let me know! Love, Alyssa  P.S. Thank you for the crayons" 

I had a relapse of some bad sickness this last week, because I missed my medication on Monday afternoon and did pretty well and thought, "Hey, maybe I'm far enough along I don't need medication anymore," and skipped Tuesday morning.  By Tuesday at lunch I was throwing up and dry heaving a lot, and it lasted through Wednesday until I could get the medication in my system again.  Yeah, you'd think that at 15 weeks I'd be far enough along to at least have the morning sickness under control - nope!

Brian's mom came over on Wednesday to help out, and while she was cleaning and asking the kids for help, they were complaining about everything they had to do.  On Wednesday evening I just heated up some leftovers and tossed a salad for dinner, and when I asked Alyssa to set the table, she started complaining again.  I explained to her that my body is sick because it's making a baby, and because of that I need to rest and take care of my body so the baby can be healthy, and whatever she and the boys do to help me out while I'm pregnant, it will help them to love the baby more when it comes.  She gave me a sweet hug and has been helping out ever since.  Yesterday she cleaned out the dishwasher and filled it back up again with the breakfast dishes AND ran it through a cycle with just a few dishes in it to surprise me.  It was so sweet!  She's a wonderful girl!

Getting Terribly Excited

I think everyone knows by now that we're Disneyland freaks.  Okay, I'm the Disneyland freak, and Brian is quickly becoming converted.  It took us forever to go, because Brian didn't want to spend the money on it, but once we went, we just keep going back.

Last Spring, I finally decided that it had been long enough since Marcus had been born, and I was ready to endure another pregnancy.  Fast forward to late September...still not pregnant.  I didn't want to have to battle morning sickness while trying to teach Alyssa, so we decided to put off being pregnant until next Spring.  At this point I said, "Since I'm not pregnant, and our tenth anniversary is coming up, let's plan something incredible for it."  Brian agreed, and his first suggestion was Disneyland.  Whether he suggested it because he now loves Disneyland as much as I do, or because he just knew it would make me happy - bless him.  I love that man.

We decided to invite some friends, and the first people who came to mind were Will and Nelsa Sumsion, because when we mention Disneyland they get as excited talking about it as I do.  We called them up and left a message inviting them, and they called us the next day saying they had already lined up a babysitter and were excited to go.  Yea!

Getting back to the pregnant thing:  When I want to get pregnant, I chart my cycles and find out exactly when I ovulate and all that, so by September I knew I was pretty consistent with my ovulation dates, and I knew that if we planned it right I would not get pregnant in October.  Heavenly Father had different plans.  I figure that either Heavenly Father really wants us to have a baby right now, or he really wants us to go to Disneyland - maybe both.  Anyway, when we went in for an early ultra sound we discovered that I had ovulated a week late, and I said, out loud, "So that's how we got pregnant!"

Anyway, now that the morning sickness is under control and I'm only miserable part of the time instead of all of the time, I'm feeling much better about this pregnancy, and I'm getting very excited to meet this baby in the Summer.  But we're also getting very excited for our Disneyland trip with the Sumsions.  A few weeks ago, when I was laying on the couch, Brian asked, "If you are feeling like you are now in February, do you still want to go to Disneyland?"  I thought, "Go to Disneyland?!? I don't even want to move!" and said, "No," but now that things are better, we're lining up our plans and counting down the days.  38 as of today, by the way.

This is the first time that we'll be going without our kids, and even though the pregnancy changes our plans of riding every roller coaster 'til we drop, I still look forward to going through the shops on Main Street without keeping tiny hands off of everything, and walking places without worrying about losing anyone.  We won't have to carry anyone who's tired of walking, or push around a stroller.  We can eat out at the fancy restaurants (We've got reservations for the Blue Bayou on both Valentine's Day and our anniversary, but we'll only pick one to go to) and walk through the stores that have breakable collectibles.  We're going to see the new water show, World of Color, and we're headed one night to watch knights battle at Medieval Times.  It's going to be so much fun!

Edited to add: I just realized I'm not going to have to help anyone get dressed in the morning!  I'll still probably be telling Brian, "Eat your breakfast, quick!  Let's get going!" though, like I have to do with the kids.

This One Goes Out To The One I Love

Sorry for the kissy picture.  Brian and I took pictures of ourselves while waiting for the kids to wake up on Christmas morning.  I wanted to use one of those, and this is the only one where Brian isn't making a horribly ugly face.

Any R.E.M. fans out there?  I grew up listening to R.E.M. because my brother loved them - great band.  So if you continue singing this song: "This one goes out to the one I love(d?)," the next line goes,  "This one goes out to the one I left behind."

I love Brian, but he is the one leaving me behind every morning, which is one of the reasons why I love him.  Before I was pregnant, I would get up in the morning to exercise, usually getting up before his alarm even thought about sounding.  Now, it's a different story.  I do wake up around 5:00 each day to take my thyroid medication, because I'm supposed to take it on an empty stomach, with lots of water, and not eat anything for at least an hour afterward. Plus, I usually throw up first thing upon getting out of bed each day, and I need to have time for that pill to get absorbed so it doesn't come right back up again.  But I don't even get out of bed to take said pill.  The bottle is sitting on my side dresser with a cup of water, and I go right back to sleep after taking it.

A while later Brian's alarm goes off and he pushes snooze, which happens a few times, 'cause that's how he does things, but then he gets out of bed to shower, and I roll over and go back to sleep.  He comes back in the room to get dressed, and I roll to the other side.  He says good-bye, I tell him I love him, and then roll over, again, and go back to sleep.

I love this man.  He hasn't complained at all.  He hasn't rubbed it in my face that he gets up way before I do, like I used to kind of do to him when I went running at crazy-5-in-the-morning.  He hasn't called me lazy or anything like it.  The closest he's even come to complaining is that he said he was tired last night and headed to bed around 7:30.  He is amazing, and I am so thankful for all the hard work he does for our family.

The Festivities

Christmas Eve we woke up bright and early to join a bunch of other families in our ward to go clean the church.  Brian and I were put in charge of cleaning the bathrooms, which is a good things, because I threw up in the toilets a few times while we were cleaning them.  Even though I was feeling crummy, it was fun to get out as a family.  We stopped at Yokes on the way home for a some doughnuts, and then enjoyed those once we got home.

At noon we went to the church for our family get-together, which was also my Grandma Harris' birthday party.  We had a ton of fun eating, watching the dads play with remote control helicopters, watching the kids perform the nativity, singing Christmas carols, and eating Grandma's cake.  There was a tiny little pregnant kitty freezing outside the church.  My brother went home and brought back some cat food and milk to feed it outside, while we all debated what to do.  It seemed as if she was dropped off by someone who didn't want a pregnant cat or that she got lost when her family moved in, but we thought it was most likely the former, because the houses around the church are so close that if a family moved in, it would be hard for her to get lost.  My brother ended up taking her home, and the plan was to call the shelter or vet on Monday.  They named her Mary, because, like Tallia said, "She was pregnant on Christmas Eve with no where to go.  What else were we supposed to call her?"

Brian and Mike pulled a couch from the foyer into the gym for me, and I took a nap while everyone played.  We took off while everyone was singing Christmas carols to head to Brian's parent's house for Christmas Eve dinner.  We stayed there until bedtime, so we would be able to put the kids to bed right when we got home.  It worked for the boys.  They were both asleep by the time we pulled into the drive way.  We had to wait a little while for Alyssa to go to sleep for Santa to come, which was hard for both Brian and I.  I didn't feel well at all, and he was dead tired.

Christmas morning was perfect.  For starters, Christmas was the first day I felt better in a long time.  (Just to update you on that: the other day when I posted when I felt better, I ended up puking my guts out quite violently, and when we went to the doctor a few days later, we told him about the Zofran issues, and he put me on something new, which is helping a lot.  I started feeling better on Christmas, and things have been sufficiently better ever since.  I still feel nauseated all the time, but it's low enough that I can ignore it for the most part.  Things are better.)

 So back to Christmas morning.  The kids slept in until almost eight o'clock.  Ethan woke us up at seven by yelling, "Is it morning...yet..." and then he went back to sleep, so Brian and I laid in bed, waiting for the kids to get up, until finally we started checking on them to see if that would wake them, which didn't work until Ethan woke up close to eight.  We got the camera out and had him wake Alyssa and Marcus, then we all went downstairs.

Santa outdid himself this year.  Everyone loved their present.  Alyssa got a friendship bracelet making kit, Ethan got a Fisher Price Trio blocks helicopter and airport tower set, and Marcus got a Fisher Price Trio blocks Batmobile.  I got an eye medication that's the equivalent of Latisse that makes your eyelashes grow long, because Brian said the pharmacy was out of Latisse.  I've used Latisse before, because Brian didn't want to recommend it to patients without knowing if it was good or not, and I loved the results.  Brian got a crepe cook book in his stocking, and he looked through it real quick and learned that it's best to have the batter sit for an hour or two before making up the crepes, so he declared that we should make up the batter and then open our other presents.

Everyone was happy with their family presents as well.  We got scriptures for each of the kids - a quad for Alyssa, with a beautiful cover I made for her during one of my better moments these past few weeks, and the cheap hard cover Book of Mormons for the boys.  Brian got a lava lamp for Alyssa, and cars for the boys.  One time while I was at Walgreens getting a prescription filled, I looked around their toy section and found some labled, "Buy two for $12.99 and get one free," so I picked up a matching game for Ethan, Disney princess figurines for Alyssa, and a Toy Story 3 backpack for Marcus, which was his absolute favorite.  Brian opened up a crepe maker, which we're both thrilled with, and his parents came over for a crepe breakfast.

We spent the rest of the day visiting Brian's grandma, then going to Mike and Tallia's for Christmas dinner.  It was a wonderful Christmas, a beautiful day.  I loved watching my kids get excited for the holiday and play with their presents all day long.  We just had a happy, relaxed feeling in our home all day long, and it was wonderful.

We Can Do This, Baby

"We can do this, Baby," is the mantra I would chant to myself when things got bad.  "We can do this," when I'd have to breathe slowly to keep myself from throwing up.  "We can do this," after throwing up and having a few blessed minutes of feeling a little bit better.  But today I said "We can do this, Baby," with enthusiasm, because today has been a good day.

Things have gotten a lot better since my last post.  I went to the hospital again, added two new drugs to my list, which helped with the nausea but also made me feel really wierd, ran out of Zofran and found that it had been making me feel worse, and today I've just been taking medication as needed instead of around the clock like I've been doing.  It kind of makes me mad that the Zofran was making me sick - not mad at the doctors, because they wouldn't know.  I've heard of Zofran working for so many people.  But it makes me mad at the Zofran.  It was supposed to be helping, but it wasn't doing it's job, or maybe it was doing it's job, and maybe now that I'm further along I don't need it.  I don't know.  I'm taking any good days I can get with a smile.  I hope this lasts and things just keep getting better from here. 

Brian wants me to tell everyone that we didn't send Christmas cards, so if you didn't get one from us, don't feel bad - no one did.  I haven't even emailed a few people back who asked for our address so they could send us a Christmas card, because the medications I've been on have made focusing on the computer difficult.  So I will get to that, and next year everyone will get a fabulous Christmas card from us, but for now, just know that we appreciate you all and we hope that everyone has a very wonderful Christmas!

Gathering Strength

I haven't had the energy to post, but I've been wondering the past couple of days if I should.  I took my Zofran and Phenegren at 9:00, then I spit in the sink, checked on the boys, and went to bed, and I ended up just laying there with words running through my mind, and I knew I needed to post if I was going to get any sleep tonight.  I have to post, because I've had some horrible thoughts the last few days, and if Alyssa ever has those thoughts, or if this baby is a girl and she ends up having those thoughts, I want them to know that I've been there, that they're not alone.   I have to post because I started this blog not to show off what a perfect life I have or how incredibly cool I am, but to truly chronicle my life, and that means not just including the fluffy, happy thoughts, but the ugly ones as well.

Life is not easy right now.  Really, I shouldn't complain.  Brian is able to help more than he has during any of my other pregnancies, both of our families have jumped on board to offer any help that is needed, and I have a good doctor that believed me when I said I get sick and is working with me to fix things.  But still, life is hard.  The Zofran keeps me from throwing up, but it doesn't keep me from feeling nauseated all of the time or from gagging and dry heaving when I move too fast or stand up.  It's gotten so bad that I've taken to yelling at my body when it happens, too keep whatever is in my stomach, down.  "Stop," I'll yell, or "NO!" really loud.  I probably look like a crazy person.  My mouth is full of saliva, and it makes me just pukey to swallow it, so I spit into a garbage can all day, and when I move that garbage can it makes me sick just feeling how heavy it's gotten.

I'm tired of laying on the couch, or in bed, but it's about all that I'm able to do each day.  Today my accomplishments were taking a shower and washing Alyssa's bedding.  Even then, my mom was there to watch the boys for me, and she was the one who made Alyssa's bed once the sheets were clean.  Oh, and showering is hard.  I try to shower when I'm feeling my best, and I also try to shower quickly so I can get out of there fast, but I'm not able to move fast, so the shower drags on.  Most days I just shampoo and condition my hair and get out of there, but even then I have to lay on my bed for a while to recover afterward.

Needles to say, as thrilled as I am to have this new life growing inside me, I hate being pregnant.  Brian and I knew we wanted another child, so we tried to get pregnant over the summer so the worst of it would be over when school started, but when I wasn't pregnant in September, we decided to stop trying until the spring, and of course, this is when I got pregnant.  And I am happy.  I really am.  I'm glad that we get to welcome one more baby into our family, and I'm excited to meet this little person, and I know that once we get through the worst of this, eventually I will feel well enough to function normally.

Yesterday was a bad day.  It's the day I need to post about.  I spent the day on the couch, being loved (i.e. crawled on) by Ethan and Marcus, and I just didn't feel well.  So when Marcus decided to help himself to the bag of Cheez-Its on the counter, and decided to help himself by dumping the whole bag on the kitchen table, and I had to jump up and say, "No, that it not what we do," and try to get the Cheez-Its into a bowl while running to the sink multiple times to gag and dry heave and scream "No!" at myself and not at Marcus, I just lost it.  I stood at the sink and started to cry.  I then composed myself long enough to make sure the Cheez-Its were contained, and I went up to my room and locked the door, went to my bathroom and locked the door, and went to my closet to cry where my children couldn't hear me.

I would love to say at this point that I prayed, but I don't think you could call it praying.  Flat out murmuring is how I remember it.  I was mad at Heavenly Father - really mad.  I was mad that I get sick, that other women get so sick while they're pregnant.  I was mad that I'm given this trial, when I want children so badly.  This is our last pregnancy.  Brian and I decided even before we started trying that we were only going through this one more time, and I can tell you now, it will not be happening again.  But I wouldn't feel this hostile to adding children to our family if my pregnancies weren't so miserable.  So, yeah, I was mad, and I just sobbed over and over, "I can't do this.  I'm not strong enough," and "It's not fair!"

Then I called my mom, and when she heard the hysteria in my voice, that I couldn't even stop crying enough to let her know what was going on, she said she was coming over right away.  My sister, who was at my parent's house, called me back after I hung up, so I wouldn't be alone while I waited.  And this is when I said horrible things.  I said that if Heavenly Father wants me to have this baby, then I will hang on to the very end, but that even though I will love this baby, I don't feel close to it yet - all I feel is sick.  I said that if Heavenly Father wanted me to have a miscarriage that I would be sad, but that I would also be a little bit happy to feel like a normal person again.  I know that is a horrible thing to say.  I know it is.  I cringe just thinking about this baby growing up and reading this, and feeling like it wasn't wanted.  It is wanted - wanted so badly.  But I have to write this for my myself, for my daughter who might someday be sick and have a moment when she feels the same way, for the many women out there who suffer as I do, for the people who don't understand - who need to understand just how consuming and debilitating hyperemesis gravidarum can be.

I have to write this to give myself strength to carry on.  To remember that I want this baby, that I love this baby, and that I can make it to the end of this horrible pregnancy.  To remember that soon I'll be able to feel the baby move, and that is one of the greatest parts of pregnancy.  To remember that someday, sooner than it feels right now, I will hold this baby in my arms and think, "It was so worth it.  You were so worth it, and I would do it again, a thousand times if I had to, if it meant getting you."

So there you have it.  Carrie, in all her horribleness.  I'll leave you with that, partly because I've run out of things to say, but mostly because I'm tired of running to the bathroom sink to spit and to gag, and I know I need to lay down soon or I will definitely throw up.  Don't worry about me, though.  Brian's mom is scheduled to come over tomorrow to help.  I have an ultra sound scheduled fro Thursday, which the doctor wants me to do each week until the end of the first trimester, since I have a history of late first trimester miscarriages.  I've had two ultra sounds so far, and every time I see that tiny little heart beating, it gives me purpose.  I'm really okay, and I'm going to make it through this.

Guess Where I've Been

Note: the computer is down, and I used my phone to post this. I wasn't going to tell, but it's just awful. This will be edited soon.

We were going to wait until Christmas to tell anyone. We weren't going to tell our parents, and we weren't going to tell the kids until Christmas day. But I am lousy at keeping secrets. I had it all planned out, too. Just imagine a cute little post on Christmas morning saying that Santa brought a friendship bracelet kit for Alyssa, a airport block set for Ethan, a Batman block set for Marcus, and a bassinet for the new baby. See? Wouldn't that be a great way to tell everyone?

Instead it was, "Mom, I'm so sick. I need a bean burrito," and "Diane, I'm so sick. Can you cook up some chicken and hamburger at your house so I don't have to smell it?" and "Kids, Daddy and I wanted to tell you special on Chrismtas morning, but the reason I've been so sick is because we're getting a new baby, and we're really going to need your help," and finally, "Mom, I'm really sick. Brian is on the phone with the doctor and they want me to come in right now. Can you come watch the kids?"

Did you notice a theme to all that? Yes, I'm pregnant, and like always I am sick as a dog. Not fun. Brian took me in last night and they sent me straight to the hospital. The doctor gave me the option Of waiting a couple of days to go in, but we decided that the sooner the better, and we just hopped across the street to the hospital. They filled me full of fluid and drugs, and I left feeling pretty good. The doctor also put in an order for a Zofran pump to see if that helps me feel better. (I've been taking Zofran tablets for about a week now, and they're helping, but not as good as we'd like.) He also told us to come back to the hospital as often as we need to until we get things under control. So hopefully we'll get this thing kicked before it kicks me. We found out that I have thyroid problems, which may be contributing to the sickness. I left the hospital felog like a normal person, then I started feeling like I had what I would assume to be normal morning sickness, and now it's gotten a little worse. I'm excited to take my Phenegren tonight, because I think that combined with the Zofran will help a lot, and of course, once my Zofran pump comes and I'm getting a continuous supply , things will get better.

BriN got me a really ute charm bracelet thatwas wrapped up and sitting under the Christmas tree when I came home today. It's a pregnancy bracelet, and you add a new charm each month until the baby comes. I love it! I put it on this afternoon, and when feel my two little charms dangling, imreminded that there's a very exciting reason for all of this, and that in July we'll have a sweet little baby.

Cold Turkey

We ran the Turkey Trot this morning.  The pies are all filled and baked.  Pumpkin cookies are placed on plates.  The broccoli salad has been sitting in the fridge since yesterday.  The kids are bathed and dressed.  All that's left to do is  wait for a phone call from my parents that the turkey is done, and we'll head to the church for some Thanksgiving fun.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Just Keep Running, Just Keep Running, Running, Running, What Do We Do? We Run, Run

I did it!  Last night I went out running, and my goal was to run a 5k without walking, and you know what?  I did it!  I'm on a super high right now, even though it's already the next morning, just because I actually did it.

My brother told me about a site with free music mixes, where you choose music based on how many beats per minute it has.  Last night I listened to "World Cruise" at 155 BPM, and I really liked it.  My time isn't as good running the whole things as apposed to when I do intervals, so I'm going to pick a song with a higher BPM on Saturday to see what that does.

A lot of people in my family are signing up for the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving morning.  Mike, Tallia, Kim, Short Brian, me, Alyssa, Ethan, possibly Megan and Michael...It's going to be great!